I watched a documentary called Foodmatters the other day; there was a section about the founder of Alcoholics Anonymous; he recommended the members take large doses of niacin to reduce depression. In many cases, it worked. After some of my own research, a lot of people in the modern-day that are more into holistic approach (rather than the typical Prozac„ etc) seem to be taking it, and it’s working well for them.

Just bought some off of Amazon. Hopefully after a few days of taking 1000mg/day I’ll stop being so fucking bipolar. It is hard to do anything anymore. Lazy because of no drive to do anything. :( Granted, I have been in way way more depressive zones in my life, and this is nothing in comparison, but I’d rather not be depressed at all, anymore.

I have had ZERO problems with my voice for like two weeks straight what!! I had that strep throat infection and after it was healed, bam, no more throat problems.

I’m probably jinxing myself saying that. whatever. I’m pretty happy about this right now.

tumbling it goes.

I had only seen clips here and there, before.

Got sick with a strep throat infection last night; been suffering from chronic laryngitis… and I’m sick of it. In Forks Over Knives, they focus on heart diseases and cancer, but the general message to be taken from it is better health. I tend to cheat. I’m poor. It’s hard to keep a lot of certain foods in the house, with my brother eating it all. It was REALLY easy to do this before, when I was living on my own. I had immaculate health.

Going to stop fucking around and take this seriously, and start eating a lot more raw foods and less nutrition-less foods.

SICK OF BEING SICK.

On a side note, it has just started pouring outside. No Perseids shower for me. :( boooo.

I’ve been vegan for a little over 2 months now (since May 25th, whoa! time’s a flyin’) and have been contemplating recently to start including small amounts of cheese - maybe once a week. So back to vegetarian, possibly. (Well, strict diet, still, the only dairy consumed would be from Kline’s likely, or any other farmer’s market sellers I found appropriate. But say, if I were to go out for dinner - back to vegan)

So, the farm that I really trust, down the street, Kline’s… they take really good care of their animals there, no hormones or crappy feed or anything. I’d just buy cheese from there. But yesterday, mom was going down to the cheese shop, in New Jersey, called Klander’s (sp?). Or something like that. Asked if I wanted to go with, I said no, because I don’t know where their dairy products are from. Cue deep sigh from Mom.

Few minutes ago, she comes and tells me “oh, so I went to Klander’s, asked them where they get their dairy, you wanna know what they said?!” very proud-like. “I dunno Mom, where?” … “Local farms!!” *Pause* I ask, “Which ones?” Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m happy that she is trying! But then she said “I don’t know! Local! Does it matter?” Then I went on explaining that “local” didn’t mean much to me, local could be just about any farm nearby the cheese shop, including places that may not take care of their livestock well, or include hormones and antibiotics in their feed that’s going into MY body!

Needless to say, she just huffed as she walked away, “I didn’t know it mattered!”, then I, “I didn’t know you were going to ask.”

5/25: 147.5 lbs
5/29: 146 lbs
6/3: 145.5
6/6: 144 lbs

vegan, motherfuckers!

if I stop at 140, I’ll be at the perfect weight for my height/BMI. :))

yippeeee

but, if I start to lose too much weight, I’m just going to start buying cheese from Kline Farms down the street. I feel good being on a more animal-ethical diet, but Kline’s treats their animals very well, so I don’t feel like I’d be sacrificing my ethics on eating cheese from them. I can’t forget that I’m doing this vegan thing for my health.

vegan for 9 days, now. surprisingly have not had any trouble figuring out what to eat! it’s been easy and fantastical.

down to 145.5 lbs from 148.

feeling greattt (!) but have a sore throat today and supa-raspy sounding. guh. fahking allergies.

5/25 : 147.5 lb
5/29 : 146 lb

k3wL.

by the way. It’s amazing how much a vegan diet (except honey, I still eat that; and I’m not a vegan in the way of non-leather and all that - I’m not getting rid of my old leather, I just don’t buy new leather)) helps you eat correctly. Pretty much any kind of sweet baked goods are out of the question (unless you go to Vegan Treats! nom). And lots of other bad-for-you snack foods. Except Oreos. Yesterday, I learned Oreo cookies were vegan. Gonna try and pretend that’s not true so I don’t eat em.

I can’t wait to start seeing results from all this. I’m starting to feel more energized every day! My skin is kind of jacked, sometimes, too, so I’m hoping that’ll improve, also.

Anywho, I need a new swimsuit but waiting till I’m back to a “new” steady weight. Prolly 140-142.

Soffe shortz/tanktop sweeminz till then!

My interests and self-identity do not identify with who people see me as. Which really doesn’t matter, but if I’m not reflecting who I am, then I’m not being myself.

GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER, VAL:

1. Get rid of all the crap you don’t need. If it doesn’t provide happiness for you or provide any functionality, get rid of it.

2. Drink less alcohol. I know you love drinking, especially good beers. Drinking isn’t a waste of time, just a luxury. You’ve had some of the best times with friends whilst drinking. However, it is expensive, and a lot of stuff that you want to do, you can’t, because you don’t have any money.

3. Eat healthier. Cut back on sugar. Don’t buy food when you don’t need it. Stop buying food from places on lunch breaks, it’s bad for you anyways. Make your own lunches at home.

4. Get on top of your health. Get back to the Doc office for a lung assessment/asthma/allergies. Take vitamin D for two months and get more bloodwork done.

5. Drink more tea, less coffee. Also, drink more water, less juices.

6. Keep organized. Getting unorganized stresses you out to an insane degree. Clean things before they get too messy, or it’ll go on “the list” of things that will never get done until a day ridden with Adderall.

7. Start your days early, every day, around 8 AM. Starting your day at this hour somehow creates awesome feelings of well-being, so just run with it! You’ll have more time to spend doing things you love. Start biking and hike more.

8. One word, PARKOUR. You’ve always wanted to do it, so get your shit together and do it, damn it!

9. Read more.

10. Learn how to be more “handy”.  I.e.: building things, fixing things, etc.

Looking at all these health blogs today (probably cause I’m sick and feel like shit and foodgasming over healthy things makes me feel better somehow) made me realize…

HOLYSHIT I NEED TO EAT BETTER.

If I’m finally done with the flu tomorrow afternoon, I’m gonna go to the grocery store and pick up a bunch of fruits and vegetables and chop them up to munch on throughout the day. And granola. BUT NO MILK. NO MILK, J-SCHRO. I know you’re thinkin’ it!

I HAVE started eating oatmeal for breakfast instead of nothing. Or cold pizza. Or other stupid unhealthy stuff. Oatmeal is the bombbb. Not that instant Quaker’s oatmeal bullshit either, the boil-over-the-stove kind with cranberries and cinnamon. Mmm.