eurybislineata: Archive

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Jul 31st

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Jul 30th

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interview went well

:) …. 2nd interview… nexxxxt week! buh. this job would be the bombbb. pay is $10/hr, full time. and I would get off every Friday/Saturday. plus holidays! and they give you free meals. and free coffee. AHHH.

Jul 30th

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a nice change

no nightmares last night, just good dreams. repeats, at that. (why the fuck do I always get repeat dreams? does this happen to anyone else?) the only part I really remember well, which is always repeated, is walking through this long hall, kind of museum like. it’s on the way to an airplane, or train, or some sort of mass transport. at the end of the hall, there’s a bunch of little...

Jul 29th

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Jul 29th

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doctor visit this morning

Went in, they basically couldn’t do anything but suggest I go to a ENT (Ear, nose, throat) specialist. Well thanks for taking my $30 for the suggestion. Ugh. So, I’ll be calling them early Monday morning to make an appointment. I googled general protocol for chronic laryngitis patients. They take a thin tube with a camera on the end, shove it down your throat, and lurk around for a...

Jul 28th

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i feel like i should just be euthanized.

obviously my immune system sucks and will just keep getting sick and keep making me not want to do anything and make me really sad all the time. soupsoupsoupsoupsoup doctors again, first thing in the AM, to get this godawful chronic laryngitis looked at. then maybe farmer’s market on my way home to pick of some healthy fuudz. chyep i am absurdly grateful for the hour cuts this past week...

Jul 27th

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feeling more and more broken as the days go on. wishing therapy wasn’t so expensive, I’d probably go, then. Having a hard time feeling any sort of emotion, the only thing that feels right anymore is getting further and further away from people. It’s getting difficult to communicate, and if people try to, I just get upset really quickly and start freaking out and seek solace. ...

Jul 26th

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Jul 26th

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Jul 26th

Jul 23rd

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Scratched open birthmark ...

still bleeding. W T F Paranoia ensues.

Jul 23rd

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Jul 23rd

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I miss ink-sketching.

The highlight of my day tomorrow will probably be going to the craft store and getting some ink pens and spending my day indoors, sketching, sipping coffee, and wishing it was that perfect kind of rainy day.

Jul 23rd

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Perpetually a hypochondriac.

Well, in reality, I probably should be worried. So, I was in the shower, scrubbin away, came across a raised spot thinking it was some random pimply thing, and scratched at it to pop it or whatever, then saw all this blood dripping down into the shower floor. It was pretty vigorously bloody, strangely. I thought it would stop by the time I was done showering… maybe 2 minutes later? Nope....

Jul 23rd

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Jul 22nd

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Jul 20th

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Jul 20th

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Jul 20th

Jul 19th

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I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS HOUSE

FUCKING IMMEDIATELY I CAN’T FUCKING TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE I CAN’T SAVE MONEY BECAUSE I BUY ALL THIS FUCKING FOOD AND THEN MY BROTHER EATS IT ALL AND THEN I EAT BREAD ALL DAY BECAUSE THE ONLY SHIT I CAN EAT IS EATEN BY MY BROTHER. AND I’M NOT DOING WELL LATELY AND THEN I HAVE MY PARENTS PRESSURING THE HELL OUT OF ME TO DO THIS AND DO THAT AND YOUR JOB SUCKS, WHEN ARE YOU GOING...

Jul 19th

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Jul 19th

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something is extremely off

but I have no idea what? For the past week, I’ve gone into a sort of hibernation. Only leaving the house to go to work, and spend all my time in bed, reading, internetting, cooking.. pretty much anything remotely entertaining so I don’t need to socialize with other people. It’s gotten to the (familiar - but that was a long time ago, something I thought that I have since gotten...

Jul 19th

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